Friday, February 18, 2011

I wanna do this too

This truly IS a challenge. I suck at blogging and stuff, so I might forget some days :P Whatever.

Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts
Day 2: What did you do today?
Day 3: Meaning behind your blog name
Day 4: Your parents
Day 5: A song to match your mood
Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7: Favorite movies
Day 8: A place you've traveled to
Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friend
Day 10: Something you're afraid of
Day 11: A youtube video that recently made you laugh
Day 12: Something you don't leave the house without
Day 13: Goals
Day 14: A picture of you last year - how have you changed?
Day 15: Bible verse
Day 16: Soemthing you made yourself
Day 17: Something you're looking forward to
Day 18: Last movie you saw
Day 19: Something you miss
Day 20: Nicknames
Day 21: A screenshot of your desktop
Day 22: What's in your bag?
Day 23: Last thing you ate and drank?
Day 24: Something you've learned
Day 25: Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26: Favorite band at the moment
Day 27: a photo of the city you live in
Day 28: Something that stresses you out
Day 29: 3 Wishes
Day 30: a picture of yourself this day and 5 good things that happened since you started the challenge

Friday, February 4, 2011

"Hate" is such a harsh word.

Yesterday, I told my mom, that there's a woman I hate.
She looked at me for a few second, and then answeared: "Ooh, you mean 'dislike', don't you?"

No, I can honestly say "I hate her", and my mom did not understand this, she thought it was a cruel thing to say.

Is it really such a harsh thing to say? Is it not okay to hate someone?
And what difference would it make if I used the word 'dislike' but still ment the same?

I do think it's a word you shouldn't throw careless around with, but it kinda seems like it really surprise some people that you can actually be so honest with your feelings, and that's a pity.

Picture not related, I love my teddybears :D

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Through life

I was asked if I could make a blog, posting pictures from my childhood.
I thought it could be fun, so here you go guys! Me through the years :D

1 year old.

They see me rollin'. They' hating!

Baby Emi does not approve >:(

2 years old.
Nom nom !

3 years old.
My grandparents dog Poco. My sister and I loved her so dearly. RIP. :)

4 years old.

OMFG, Is that Santa!!?

  5 years old.


6 years old.

Fuck yeah! Computer from 98 ! :D

7 years old.

drawing :)

8 years old.

I became a nun in an early age :D

9 years old

Unhappy mexican.

10 years old.

I assume this is when my passion for neon colours and ducks started.

11 years old.

Once I had super long hair...

12 years old.

And then I cut it all off!!
This was the period of my life where I wanted to look like a boy, dress like a boy, and act like a boy. My sister thought I would becoma a lesbian.

13 years old.

reading for my little cousin.

14 years old.

This is where everything went downhill :D

15 years old
I can't find any 15 year old pctures of me in the photoalbums. I didn't spend much time with my family by then.

16 years old

Family photo. I'm to the left.

17 year old.

AND BAM! Colours!
With my mom and sister :)

I guess you all know how I look now as an 18 year old :]

Thanks for reading my blog! Have a great and funny life!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Welcome to 2011 !

I welcomed 2011 with a smile!
I stood on the chair, as I do every year, watching the countdown on tv, jumping into the new year at 12 o'clock!

In my hand, I had 2 pieces of paper. One of them was a little ticket I gave my fiancé on Valentines day. It reads: "This ticket is worth me, being yours forever." He used the ticket one day I was really upset, and it made me so happy. I always keep it in my wallet, and I wanted to bring it into the new year, hoping it will be true ^_^

The same goes for the second piece of paper, that was a note with my new years resolutions. I've never been a big fan of these resolutions, but I actually want to achieve alot of things in this year, so why not?

My new year resolutions are these:

1. I don't want to waste my days.

- I've been really sick for a looong time, and it makes me feel like I've wasted alot of days and opportunities. Even when I weren't sick anymore, it has felt hard for me to get up and going again. Therefore, this year has passed by too fast, without me accomplishing anything really. But that's going to change!
I want a job! I wanna move out! I wanna start in school again at August (when school starts again, I wanna do alot of stuff! This is the most important one of my resolutions.

2. I want to live healthy.

- I don't think I live unhealthy as it is now. I eat veggies and fruit everyday, and usually only eat candy when I have visit or I visit someone.
But I also wanna exercise more, and most important, be happy!
I think it's healty to smile and feel good inside :D !

3. I want to stay vegetarian

- I got really inspired when I met my fiancé and realized he was vegetarian. I thought (and still think) he's being so cool about it. He dosen't promote himself as being vegetarian, he don't yell "murder" at people who eat meat, he just do it because he feel so, and it just comes naturally to him. I've been thinking about going vegetarian for years, and actually dating one really helped me taking the last step and actually do it. And I decided to keep it this way so far. No meat, no fish, no gelatin .. and no nasty Carmin!
But also "No Being Super Annoying Vegetarian-Person", those sucks.

4. I want to be more creative.

- This is part of the "I don't want to waste my days." - Resolution. I want to draw again, because I haven't really done that for years, same thing with writing. I don't wanna waste my time in bed watching stupid tv all day, I wanna start sewing, making dreads, create nice stuff!
But that dosen't mean I can't play some awesome videogames or watch some good documentaries once in a while! ;)

So that was my new year resolutions!

Do you have any, and if so, what are they?

I honestly wanna know! :D Leave a comment below!

Oh, and last, a quick little resumé about how I spend my new years eve.

All day, me and my friend had been watching Gackt live koncert dvds, and we also watched them through the night. If we didn't, we would put on some of Gackts songs. Me and Kristina kind of met through Gackt and our former passion for Manga and Anime when we where around 12 years old (I swear, I'm not an Anime freak ... not alot, atleast :D) , so it was really nice to just spend the whole night drinking, and talking about how damn hot those damn small japanese men are.
And how strangely cute they look in womens dresses, tight leather pants and cat-costumes. oO"

We also made home-made sushi, and if I may say so myself, I'm pretty damn awesome at making makis. I ate so much I was about to cry when I realized how much candy we had to eat, omg. :D

In the end, it was a really awesome night, despite it just being the two of us. I don't like new years eve, because something bad always happen for me that day (and I'm also extreme terried of firework), but not this time! It was great <3 I hope you all have a wonderfull year 2011 ! Luvz <3 This is btw a picture of me from Christmas eve, but I thought this blog needed a picture and well ... There's no succelfull pictures of me from new years eve :D

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Don't listen to them! No more 'buts' !

Next time you're giving someone ”advises” or telling someone what "right", please reconsider what you're actually saying, or rather, what you're doing to them.

When I was a kid, the idea of what I wanted to be when I grew up, was nothing like what I actually want today. Naturally kids just have these cute and funny things that they want to be when they grow up.
That's typical firemen, policemen, astronauts, popstars or you know.. stuff like that.
When I was a kid, I wanted to be a farmer, because I loved animals, and I really wanted a cow!

And that's it. That's all you prepare for as a small kid, and that's fine.
My mom and dad just thought it was funny, and ofcourse supported this because after all, if was just a cute childs dream.
But it's because of this dream that my love and interest for animals grew, and I started reading alot of books about them. At some point, I just grew away from the farmer-dream. But imagine if my parents would have said that being a farmer was a bad idea. Maybe I wouldn't have liked animals this much today. Or at least never got that interested in them.

As I grew, I started getting different kinds of interests, and since you're kept asked all the time ”what do you wanna be when you grow up” i kinda ”needed” this idea of what I actually wanted to be.
I remember at some point, I told my friends that I wanted to be an animal psychologist. More specifically a dog psychologist. By that, I meant that I wanted to work with the animals behaviors and be able to figure out why the animal would behave in a certain way, and then know what to do, to train to do as it's supposed to.
My friends started making fun of me. They joked about how I would try to talk to 'stupid' animals like goldfish's, and thought that was very funny for quite some time. I laughed at it too. Surely, they were only kidding. But it weren't really that funny.
I told my mom, because she would understand!
Instead I got this: ”It's very hard to be an animal psychologist, you would have to go for a specific animal, you would need this and this kind of grades, and this kind of education, and it's really hard. But sure, good idea”

- Yeah, that didn't sound very encouraging. And no matter what my mom meant with this, she made it sound like ”this is too hard for you. It's probably not fun anyway”.
Especially for a little child that didn't know better.
So I slowly forgot about this idea.. It was probably too hard for me to do anyway, right?

This is just one example.. It's basicly been like this, everytime i came up with an idea of what I might wanted to be, when I grew up. Same thing would always happen. It was either a funny object for friends to make fun of, or it was too hard, risky, probably no fun at all, and had a bad salary according to family.

Ever since me and my sister was kids, I remember my aunt always telling us to grow up as hairdresser, so she could get her hair done for free. At that point, I couldn't care less about hair. But guess what! That changed... Alot!

I told my mom that I would consider being a hairdresser if I couldn't find anything else I wanted to do. Then I was told that that was a great idea BUT … Yeah .. fucking but...
You'd had to stand up all day, family and friends would probably ask you to do alot of unpaid jobs, the salary isn’t really that great, and is that really what you wanna do with your life?

Just shut up .. Seriously.

As an ”almost adult” I'm old enough to say to myself: I'm not going to listen to these people, I wanna do what I wanna do. And I'm not gonna do that anymore for sure, but I hope you get my point! As a kid, you don't really know better, and it's goint to be planted in your head, because things you learn in your childhood will stick to you. It will always kinda be there back in your head telling you: “Whatever you think is a good idea, is a bad idea”
Imagine if people had just said ”that's sounds good, I think YOU would like that. ”

Maybe I would be on my way, becoming an animal psychologist right now. Maybe not, but atleast I wouldn't have the memories of a broken dream.
I probably wouldn't be in a state of panic right now, because this is the age were I need to figure out what I wanna do, but have no fucking clue, because no matter who you go to, there's always a fucking but..

I'm not only talking about jobs. I'm talking about all sorts of things that could have been a great idea, something you're happy about, or something you think you're good at. Thank you for ruining all that with a ”but”, or pointing out that what ever you do, someone will always be better than you, and it's not really good enough.

Next time you wanna advise someone.. Please, think about what you're saying..
I understand if it's a completely retarded idea that can only end up wrong..
But don't question peoples dreams, and self-esteem with a 'but'.. (haaah .. butt .. )
Sometimes a ”that's sounds great”, “that seems like a good idea FOR YOU”, “You're good at that” or a “good for you”, is the most helpful thing to say..

I apologize for any grammatically incorrect words or sentences that might be. I wrote this very quickly in the middle of the night, and I don't care.
I could have made this blog longer and more detailed but.. Meh, I wanna do something that makes me smile now :)
My next blog is gonna be about “being positive” I think .. Atleast that's what I have in mind for now, because, not long ago, I realized how much I actually like to smile. And I will be smiling much more from now on... I hope :D

Luvs, Emi <3

Monday, December 13, 2010

About a dream I had last night.

I don't believe that dreams have a deeper meaning to them, or that they can predict the future or what ever.
But I do believe they can reflect oppressed feelings, emotions and thoughts.
I think they can be affected by stress, happiness, depression and so on.

This dream proved to me, that even when I'm dreaming, I have my meaning about stuff, I that I'll do what I think is right and justice. Unfortunatly, is seems that doing what's right isen't always appriciated:

I don't remember much details, but I was at my grandparents house.
Their neighbours daughter was missing, so everyone was out looking for her.

In the meantime, as I'm in my grandparents garden, eating breakfast in the sun, we are told that their son is missing too. That's when I, for some reason, realize, that the little bug that's sitting on the table next to me, is him!
I don't know how I know. I just do, and I'm quite sure he was a mosqito, but I don't think it really matters.
Anyway, my grandfather also know this for some reason, and he's telling me, that we should just kill the bug. There's no reason for him to live, if he's trapped in such useless body.
I desperately tell him not to. It's still the neighbours son, he's still a living being, he's just trapped in a different living body.
I thought for a second, that I convinced him, put suddenly he squeeses the bug to death with his thumb.

I totally freak out, yelling at my grandfather that he just killed the neighbors son!
But he don't seem to care at all!
I run across the street, where all the people, looking for the children have gathered together. They just stand there talking, and I wait for my grandfather to confess what he did, so that they atleast know what happened to the boy. But he don't
I feel so sorry for the worried parents, that I decide to go tell them what happened, even though I can hear my grandfathers voice in my head, yelling no!

But I did. Everyone freaks out. People are screaming, people are yelling, there's even a big boy, I kinda think is my cousin, that's almost about to punch my grandfather.
I try apoligizing to my grandfather, telling him it was the only right thing to do! No matter what, he murdered the son. Just because he was trapped inside the body of a bug, didn't make his life less worth.
But my grandfather won't talk to me. He simply just ignore me, and walk away.
And so I stood there alone quite for a while, crying, until I woke up.

I'm sure my grandfather would never do such thing in real life! I have no idea why I dreamt him doing this. You can only dream about faces you already know, so I guess it had to be someone!

- What do you think though?
Would a human life matter less in the body of an insect?

I'm just happy that I've never been the type that kills bugs and spiders.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

The first days of December.

The temperature is everything between –1 C° to -7C° in Copenhagen. It's snowing like crazy, and that's all the news can talk about. Snow is more important than anything else happening in the world right now, it seems.
But it's so rare getting snow around here in December, and it fits all the Christmas decorations and Christmas feelings perfectly! As I'm sitting by my window, I can't imagine why anyone would complain about it! That being until I have to walk outside myself, and wait for the public transportation, that ofcorse are delayed because of the snow. :(
But right now, that feels so unimportant.
Because I can't help being happy all the time at the moment! I don't even know why! I just feel so positive, calm and loving, and I'm so happy about myself :D

Maybe the 1st of December just started perfectly!
When I woke up, I didn't even notice it was Christmas. I was going to visit my grandparents that day, and so I did. I know my Grandmother always decorate their house, like a Christmas bomb exploded inside it, it's like that every year, but every year, it still manage to make me all exited as soon as I step inside.
The fact that I grew up in this house also make it so amazing to visit in the Christmas time :)
I sat by the window at the dining table. My grandma made tea, put home-baked sugarcoated cinnamon danish bread (whatever that's called in English, haha :P) on the table, together with chocolate cookies, cinnamon biscuits and gingerbread.
On top of all that, I got my advent present (I'm not sure if that's a tradition outside of Denmark, but the older kids get a present every Sunday in Christmas), and some stupid child-calendar thing, but especially the last thing made me feel like a little kid again, and that was just absolutely great <3 I'm never gonna get used to grow up, I think. Such a wonderful day, such a wonderful start of Christmas! I felt like smiling that whole day! This view also made me smile! It's taken by me, from my window! I was so amazed!

I think that feeling have followed me up until today, and will hopefully continue for .. forever! :D
It's still snowing, there's pretty lights everywhere, Copenhagen is full of Christmas smell (I smell cinnamon and honey roasted almonds fucking everywhere!), and in only 5 days from now, I'll be together with my love again <3 Oh yeah, we have the most crazy ice-taps on our house, they're huge :D The picture is taken one of the first snow-days, they've grown even bigger since! They look super vicious!

Last but not least, I finally took a proper picture of myself, and with the fear of sounding very narcissistic, I like it very much!

Happy Christmas from me! I don't hope I'm gonna make another Christmas-blog :D
Luws <3